Journey Through My Crazy Life

jspark3000:

Whenever someone asks me my opinion about gay people, or people who support abortion, or people who picket funerals, or people of other religions, or transgender people, or overly religious people, I usually say, “You mean what do I think about people?  Well I’m a people too, and we’re all pretty screwed up.  And I think we all need Jesus.”

God loves people.  We’re all invited.  End of story.

— J

Don’t give up.

lonestarmommy:

To all the women trying for to complete their lives, don’t give up.
Infertility is a battle. A battle that can be won. Infertility is a disease, a disease with solutions. Infertility is a struggle, but there is still a light at the end of the tunnel.
Don’t give up.
Yes, it’s unfair. It’s painful. It’s stressful. It’s heartbreaking. Yes, it hurts.
But you cannot give up. Your future is waiting for you.
Please, don’t give up.

When you don’t know what to say…..

I hate when there is something I want to say…I need to say… But I can’t find the right words to accurately express my feelings so that everyone would understand. I feel that if I say it how I think it, it will come out wrong and I will be judged. Now, normally I could care less what anyone else thinks or says about me… But this time. I do care. In this case, I care very much. So let’s see if I can relay the message in my heart without a negative outcome. Please don’t judge!!!!

Foster care is hard. Foster children are hard to deal with. Especially when they are older. And especially for those of us who have/had no biological children first. I’ve worked with children and in childcare for over a decade, but I’ve never been a parent. I’ve taken care of other people’s children for ever, but never on a constant daily basis in my home. And when my husband and I realized that we may never have biological children, we dove feet first into foster care without REALLY understanding what we were doing. Like I have said before, ryan and i are dreamers. We tried to map out our lives and have only failed at living out our dreams. When we accepted 3 children into our home, we were dreaming through rose colored glasses. But a mere 3 months later, we’ve taken our “beautiful life” goggles off and we see our world in true light. Is not what we imagined. It’s not what we had hoped for.
I love these kids from the bottom of my heart! I live for them everyday right now until they go home. But they aren’t MY children. Not just because they aren’t up for adoption, but because I am not attached to them the way a mother is to their child. My hope was that, like with my dear friend Joy, that once we had children in our home, my desperate desire to concieve and carry and give birth to my own beautiful healthy children would dissipate and I would learn to live again. But that dream also failed. If anything, this experience has made my desire stronger. My heart has always been for children, but now, my heart is for my own. I’ve grown tired of being a babysitter, a daycare teacher, and a nanny. And in the present, I am a full time live in nanny. Or at least that is how I feel. Again, I dearly love these children and I will do everything in my power to keep them safe and care for them for as long as it takes until they go home. But I’ve also come to realize that foster care isn’t for everyone. And im not sure if I can do this again.

One day. I hope

jspark3000:

#anomaly @lecrae @jeffersonbethke

jspark3000:

#anomaly @lecrae @jeffersonbethke

themomsmustbecrazy:

papercutpath:

myjourneytomommyhood:

We pay $899/month for a 2-bedroom apartment in Virginia Beach.

We pay $1150, but we have a great 2 bedroom in the city within walking distance to shops, restaurants and bars. It’s a steal.

$1,947. For a fair sized two bedroom in a walk up in a solid…

$750 plus utilities for a two story, three bedroom home on a few acres of farm land here in Utica, Illinois! :)

What happens when I have a mood swing…

thyroiddiseasediaries:

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Hahahaha
Yes, yes to all of them.

miscarriage-me:

<3
myinnersadness:

Always…

myinnersadness:

Always…

glowfirst:

10. Baby shower invitations now hold the same appeal as an emergency root canal.

9. You get livid when your husband masturbates during your fertile window.

8. Your iPhone’s camera roll is filled with pictures of ovulation tests. Taken through multiple filters.

7. When you see a glass of apple…

wedeserveababy:

All of this.

wedeserveababy:

All of this.

Can we just fast forward to the point where I’m pregnant now?