Journey Through Life
Hey fitspo friends!!! So I was having a bit trouble lately figuring out how to best maximize and utilize my time working out. The machines at the gym can be intimidating to newbies like myself. So I spent several hours researching and of course on pintrest, and I came up with this idea for myself. These are envelopes, one for each day of the week. Each day I will do cardio and then work on my focus subject. (I.e. legs, arms, core, etc.) So each envelope has an at home focus workout inside that I will do at home (once in the morning and again at night). Then three days per week I will do specific workouts at the gym. The days that I don’t go to the gym I will be doing my fantastic Bellydance DVD that previously helped me lose 30lbs and get toned. This way I’ll be working out everyday, giving each body area it’s own specific workouts and days, and this way I’ll lose weight and get fit much faster!! Each month I’ll change up the workouts and time spent working out. As I build up my stamina Ill be increasing my workouts to avoid hitting a platuea!!! I’m very excited about this idea because I love sticking to plans and schedules! What do you all think??

Hey fitspo friends!!! So I was having a bit trouble lately figuring out how to best maximize and utilize my time working out. The machines at the gym can be intimidating to newbies like myself. So I spent several hours researching and of course on pintrest, and I came up with this idea for myself. These are envelopes, one for each day of the week. Each day I will do cardio and then work on my focus subject. (I.e. legs, arms, core, etc.) So each envelope has an at home focus workout inside that I will do at home (once in the morning and again at night). Then three days per week I will do specific workouts at the gym. The days that I don’t go to the gym I will be doing my fantastic Bellydance DVD that previously helped me lose 30lbs and get toned. This way I’ll be working out everyday, giving each body area it’s own specific workouts and days, and this way I’ll lose weight and get fit much faster!! Each month I’ll change up the workouts and time spent working out. As I build up my stamina Ill be increasing my workouts to avoid hitting a platuea!!! I’m very excited about this idea because I love sticking to plans and schedules! What do you all think??

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5 months ago
Friday Night’s Dinner 12/7/12 Serves 5 for approximately $15 This was another new recipe that turned out excellent!! I still can’t taste up to par yet because if my cold, but hubby said it was really really good!! The recipe is actually called “Chicken Pot Pie with Crunchy Brown Rice Crust”. It has an excellent array of textures and was filling! It took a little longer than my previous meals, but it was well worth the work! :) Ingredients: - 1tblspn olive oil, plus more for greasing - 1tblspn of butter - 1pound boneless skinless chicken breasts cut into 1 inch pieces - 1/4 pound sliced button mushrooms - 2 tspns of chopped thyme, divided - 1 large carrot chopped - 1 rib of celery thinly sliced - 1 small yellow onion chopped - salt and pepper to taste - 1/4 cup brown rice flour - 1 1/2 cup low sodium gluten free chicken broth - 1 cup of lactose free whole milk - 1 cup cooked brown rice - 1/2 tspn paprika - 1/2 cup frozen peas 1) preheat oven to 400 and spray brightly oil a 9in pie dish and set aside 2) heat the oil and butter in a large skillet over medium/high heat. Add chicken and cook, stirring occasionally, until no longer pink. 3) add mushrooms, 1 tspn of thyme, carrots, celery, onions, salt and pepper, and cook until just tender. 4) add rice flour and stir constantly for 1 minute. 5) add broth and milk, stir, and tting to a simmer. Reduce heat to medium/low until thick or about 10 minutes. 6) combine cooked rice, paprika, and the remaining tspn of thyme into a bowl. 7) stir frozen peas into the chicken mixture and transfer to the pie pan. Scatter the rice mixture evenly over the top and place pan on cookie sheets catch drippings. 8) bake until bubbly and the rice crust is crisp, about 30 minutes! 9) serve and enjoy the warm, crunchy yet smooth snl creamy deliciousness!!!

Friday Night’s Dinner 12/7/12
Serves 5 for approximately $15

This was another new recipe that turned out excellent!! I still can’t taste up to par yet because if my cold, but hubby said it was really really good!! The recipe is actually called “Chicken Pot Pie with Crunchy Brown Rice Crust”. It has an excellent array of textures and was filling! It took a little longer than my previous meals, but it was well worth the work! :)

Ingredients:
- 1tblspn olive oil, plus more for greasing
- 1tblspn of butter
- 1pound boneless skinless chicken breasts cut into 1 inch pieces
- 1/4 pound sliced button mushrooms
- 2 tspns of chopped thyme, divided
- 1 large carrot chopped
- 1 rib of celery thinly sliced
- 1 small yellow onion chopped
- salt and pepper to taste
- 1/4 cup brown rice flour
- 1 1/2 cup low sodium gluten free chicken broth
- 1 cup of lactose free whole milk
- 1 cup cooked brown rice
- 1/2 tspn paprika
- 1/2 cup frozen peas

1) preheat oven to 400 and spray brightly oil a 9in pie dish and set aside

2) heat the oil and butter in a large skillet over medium/high heat. Add chicken and cook, stirring occasionally, until no longer pink.

3) add mushrooms, 1 tspn of thyme, carrots, celery, onions, salt and pepper, and cook until just tender.

4) add rice flour and stir constantly for 1 minute.

5) add broth and milk, stir, and tting to a simmer. Reduce heat to medium/low until thick or about 10 minutes.

6) combine cooked rice, paprika, and the remaining tspn of thyme into a bowl.

7) stir frozen peas into the chicken mixture and transfer to the pie pan. Scatter the rice mixture evenly over the top and place pan on cookie sheets catch drippings.

8) bake until bubbly and the rice crust is crisp, about 30 minutes!

9) serve and enjoy the warm, crunchy yet smooth snl creamy deliciousness!!!

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5 months ago
So I just wanted to post this quick update/comparison. I’ve always been a little heavy, but never as heavy as I am these days. So I made this little collage of me at an active healthy time in my life in 2010…to my stressful depressed heavy self in 2012. This is what a stressful (at first) marriage, two miscarriages, and depression did to me. In 2010 I was 210lbs and last month I was 300lbs. That’s almost 100 lbs gained in two years. Here’s to hoping it won’t take two years to lose 100lbs!!!!

So I just wanted to post this quick update/comparison. I’ve always been a little heavy, but never as heavy as I am these days. So I made this little collage of me at an active healthy time in my life in 2010…to my stressful depressed heavy self in 2012. This is what a stressful (at first) marriage, two miscarriages, and depression did to me. In 2010 I was 210lbs and last month I was 300lbs. That’s almost 100 lbs gained in two years. Here’s to hoping it won’t take two years to lose 100lbs!!!!

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5 months ago
Thursday night’s dinner (12/6/12) Serves 4 for $5-$10 So usually I dress up my corn shell tacos with yummy veggies like peppers and onions and tomatoes. But since I’m sick and can’t taste anything, I just ate the meat and refried beans. (And no I didn’t eat all 4 tacos) You’re probably looking at this thinking, “This just looks like regular tacos?” And you are right!! Old El Paso brand seasoning is made with corn flour instead of wheat flour, making it gluten free! Plus, the only ingredients you need are ground beef and any veggies you’d like to add! My husband likes his served over crunched up Nacho Doritos with tons of shredded cheese piled on top! He digests dairy very well unlike myself. Lol! This is a quick and easy meal that we usually make only once a month or so. :)

Thursday night’s dinner (12/6/12)
Serves 4 for $5-$10

So usually I dress up my corn shell tacos with yummy veggies like peppers and onions and tomatoes. But since I’m sick and can’t taste anything, I just ate the meat and refried beans. (And no I didn’t eat all 4 tacos)

You’re probably looking at this thinking, “This just looks like regular tacos?” And you are right!! Old El Paso brand seasoning is made with corn flour instead of wheat flour, making it gluten free! Plus, the only ingredients you need are ground beef and any veggies you’d like to add! My husband likes his served over crunched up Nacho Doritos with tons of shredded cheese piled on top! He digests dairy very well unlike myself. Lol! This is a quick and easy meal that we usually make only once a month or so. :)

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5 months ago
So I decided to post my starting (aka before) pictures and then when I reach each goal, I’ll post progress pictures and stats along the way! As you can see, I don’t have much of a “shape” anymore. I’m considered morbidly obese in terms of height and weight and age. I need to weigh between 150-170 lbs before we can start ttc again. On November 20th, I first set foot in the gym, which has now become my new addiction since I’ve had to put ttc on hold until I get my health on track. So in this picture my stats are as follows: Weight: 300 lbs Neck: 16 inches Breast: 55 inches Arm: 15 inches Ribs: 50 inches Waist: 56 inches Hips: 56 inches Thigh: 29 1/4 inches Calf: 19 inches BMI: 47.6 Total body Fat: 48.3 In just 2 1/2 weeks, I’m currently down 7 pounds and 16 inches since this was taken. When I reach the 20 pound mark I will post new stats and pictures!!

So I decided to post my starting (aka before) pictures and then when I reach each goal, I’ll post progress pictures and stats along the way! As you can see, I don’t have much of a “shape” anymore. I’m considered morbidly obese in terms of height and weight and age. I need to weigh between 150-170 lbs before we can start ttc again. On November 20th, I first set foot in the gym, which has now become my new addiction since I’ve had to put ttc on hold until I get my health on track. So in this picture my stats are as follows:

Weight: 300 lbs
Neck: 16 inches
Breast: 55 inches
Arm: 15 inches
Ribs: 50 inches
Waist: 56 inches
Hips: 56 inches
Thigh: 29 1/4 inches
Calf: 19 inches
BMI: 47.6
Total body Fat: 48.3

In just 2 1/2 weeks, I’m currently down 7 pounds and 16 inches since this was taken. When I reach the 20 pound mark I will post new stats and pictures!!

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5 months ago
Wednesday night’s dinner (12/5/12) Serves 4 for under $10 The cheapest, easiest meal so far this week! And delicious might I add!! Everyone knows how to make spaghetti…well they should. If you have a Meijer in or near your town, I encourage you to buy Pasta de’oro gluten free corn pasta. It’s delicious! And when cooked perfect El dente is glorious. Plus it’s soy free, dairy free, and gmo free as well! AND was like $1.60!! One package made two pots of pasta(or 4 servings each/8servings total for one package.) In my spaghetti, I start by pureeing 1/4 of a large onion and 4 cloves of garlic. It gives that flavor boost which we love, without actually biting into chunks of them, which my husband hates. So I add the puree into the meat while it’s browning. So while the meat is browning and the noodles are boiling. I seeded and chopped half of a large green pepper, two red and two orange sweet peppers, and a handful of mushrooms (all fresh of course!!) Once the meat is browned, I add the peppers and mushrooms and cover to cook for a couple of minutes. By then the noodles were done. Drained the noodles, do not rinse! Add gluten free sauce (any of your preference, ragu is a popular gfree) to the meat and cover for a few minutes. Add to the noodles, stir, serve, and enjoy!!!! So simple and easy!!

Wednesday night’s dinner (12/5/12)
Serves 4 for under $10

The cheapest, easiest meal so far this week! And delicious might I add!! Everyone knows how to make spaghetti…well they should.

If you have a Meijer in or near your town, I encourage you to buy Pasta de’oro gluten free corn pasta. It’s delicious! And when cooked perfect El dente is glorious. Plus it’s soy free, dairy free, and gmo free as well! AND was like $1.60!! One package made two pots of pasta(or 4 servings each/8servings total for one package.)

In my spaghetti, I start by pureeing 1/4 of a large onion and 4 cloves of garlic. It gives that flavor boost which we love, without actually biting into chunks of them, which my husband hates. So I add the puree into the meat while it’s browning.

So while the meat is browning and the noodles are boiling. I seeded and chopped half of a large green pepper, two red and two orange sweet peppers, and a handful of mushrooms (all fresh of course!!) Once the meat is browned, I add the peppers and mushrooms and cover to cook for a couple of minutes.

By then the noodles were done. Drained the noodles, do not rinse! Add gluten free sauce (any of your preference, ragu is a popular gfree) to the meat and cover for a few minutes. Add to the noodles, stir, serve, and enjoy!!!!

So simple and easy!!

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5 months ago
Tuesday Night’s Dinner (12/4/12) Serves 6-8 for $12 This was the first night making this. It was excellent! But it did taste just like chili lol! Perfect dinner for this cold night. :) Gather your ingredients! - Half of one large onion (diced) - 6 cloves of garlic (minced) - 3 stalks of celery (diced) - 1 C of carrots (diced) - 5 C of beef broth (home made or low sodium gluten free) - 4, 15oz cans of black beans (undrained) - 1, 15oz can of whole kernel corn (drained) - 3 medium tomatoes - 4 tsp cumin - 1 1/2 tsp chili powder - 1/2 tsp salt - pepper to taste - juice of 1 small lime (optional) - 1/2 bunch of cilantro chopped to garnish (optional) 1) in a large pot, saute the onion, celery, carrots, and garlic in 1 cup of beef broth over medium heat for 6 to 7 minutes. 2) add chili powder, cumin, and black pepper, and cook for another minute or 2 3)stir in the remaining beef broth, 2 and a half cans of black beans, and can of sweet corn. 4) turn to high heat and bring to a boil. 5) put remaining cans of beans and tomatoes into a blender and process until smooth. 6) stir in mixture to the pot when boiling, reduce heat to medium and simmer for 15 minutes until beans and vegetables are done to your desired tenderness. 7) add salt to taste and lime juice. serve in bowls, and garnish with fresh chopped cilantro, and enjoy!! (Ps..I added ground beef which made it taste like chili lol)

Tuesday Night’s Dinner (12/4/12)
Serves 6-8 for $12

This was the first night making this. It was excellent! But it did taste just like chili lol! Perfect dinner for this cold night. :)

Gather your ingredients!

- Half of one large onion (diced)
- 6 cloves of garlic (minced)
- 3 stalks of celery (diced)
- 1 C of carrots (diced)
- 5 C of beef broth (home made or low sodium gluten free)
- 4, 15oz cans of black beans (undrained)
- 1, 15oz can of whole kernel corn (drained)
- 3 medium tomatoes
- 4 tsp cumin
- 1 1/2 tsp chili powder
- 1/2 tsp salt
- pepper to taste
- juice of 1 small lime (optional)
- 1/2 bunch of cilantro chopped to garnish (optional)

1) in a large pot, saute the onion, celery, carrots, and garlic in 1 cup of beef broth over medium heat for 6 to 7 minutes.

2) add chili powder, cumin, and black pepper, and cook for another minute or 2

3)stir in the remaining beef broth, 2 and a half cans of black beans, and can of sweet corn.

4) turn to high heat and bring to a boil.

5) put remaining cans of beans and tomatoes into a blender and process until smooth.

6) stir in mixture to the pot when boiling, reduce heat to medium and simmer for 15 minutes until beans and vegetables are done to your desired tenderness.

7) add salt to taste and lime juice. serve in bowls, and garnish with fresh chopped cilantro, and enjoy!!

(Ps..I added ground beef which made it taste like chili lol)

5 months ago
Monday Night’s Dinner (12/3/12) Serves 4 for $10 Tonight’s Gluten Free dinner is high on the top of our favorites list! It’s a healthy stir fry basically but the soy sauce is optional ;) Start out by gathering all the ingredients. - 1C. Brown Rice - 2 1/2C. Water - 2-3 Boneless skinless chicken breasts - 1 head of broccoli - 1/2 C. Chopped carrots - 4 tblspns whole kernel corn - salt to taste - olive oil - gluten free soy sauce (optional) 1) wash and cut up chicken into chunks. Boil chicken in 2 1/2 cups of water (I like to add gfree low sodium chicken bouillon cubes for added flavor.) 2) while chicken is boiling, cook the chopped carrots in a skillet with the olive oil. When medium tender add in the corn. Let cook for a few minutes and add in the broccoli. Add chicken from the boiling pot once the meat is no longer pink. Cover and put on medium/low to let steam. 3) While the chicken water is boiling, add in the cup of brown rice and cook according to instructions on bag. 4) when rice is cooked completely and the water is absorbed, mix it into the skillet with the veggies and chicken. 5) serve in bowls and enjoy!! (And add the soy sauce for added flavor if youd like!)

Monday Night’s Dinner (12/3/12)
Serves 4 for $10

Tonight’s Gluten Free dinner is high on the top of our favorites list! It’s a healthy stir fry basically but the soy sauce is optional ;)

Start out by gathering all the ingredients.
- 1C. Brown Rice
- 2 1/2C. Water
- 2-3 Boneless skinless chicken breasts
- 1 head of broccoli
- 1/2 C. Chopped carrots
- 4 tblspns whole kernel corn
- salt to taste
- olive oil
- gluten free soy sauce (optional)

1) wash and cut up chicken into chunks. Boil chicken in 2 1/2 cups of water (I like to add gfree low sodium chicken bouillon cubes for added flavor.)

2) while chicken is boiling, cook the chopped carrots in a skillet with the olive oil. When medium tender add in the corn. Let cook for a few minutes and add in the broccoli. Add chicken from the boiling pot once the meat is no longer pink. Cover and put on medium/low to let steam.

3) While the chicken water is boiling, add in the cup of brown rice and cook according to instructions on bag.

4) when rice is cooked completely and the water is absorbed, mix it into the skillet with the veggies and chicken.

5) serve in bowls and enjoy!! (And add the soy sauce for added flavor if youd like!)

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5 months ago
This GIF is so cool! I had to repost!

This GIF is so cool! I had to repost!

(Source: valmarin, via wishingforlittlemiracles)

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5 months ago
This gorgeous little girl is my first and favorite niece. She’s my princess and my world. Her parents went through hell and back with infertility to have her, and she has proven to be a mighty blessing in our family. For 5 years she was the only grandbaby in the family. So you can imagine how spoiled she was! And still is of course :) At 6 year’s old, this beautiful blessing has seen and lived through more heartbreak than any child her age should experience. Her mommy and daddy had a rough relationship and I believe her little world crashed around her when they separated. She has a lot of anger inside of her little heart that she doesn’t know what to do with. She has a temper that could bring down goliath. I can hear the sadness in her voice and see it in her eyes. But when she smiles, the room lights up like a forest fire! She doesn’t know how beautiful and precious she is. I’m honored to be her favorite aunt. She is now a big sister, and an amazing one at that. She is protective over Lily, but like any child feels some jealousy as well at times. Grace will always be the apple of my eye. I love her as if she were my own. And nothing will ever change that

This gorgeous little girl is my first and favorite niece. She’s my princess and my world. Her parents went through hell and back with infertility to have her, and she has proven to be a mighty blessing in our family. For 5 years she was the only grandbaby in the family. So you can imagine how spoiled she was! And still is of course :) At 6 year’s old, this beautiful blessing has seen and lived through more heartbreak than any child her age should experience. Her mommy and daddy had a rough relationship and I believe her little world crashed around her when they separated. She has a lot of anger inside of her little heart that she doesn’t know what to do with. She has a temper that could bring down goliath. I can hear the sadness in her voice and see it in her eyes. But when she smiles, the room lights up like a forest fire! She doesn’t know how beautiful and precious she is. I’m honored to be her favorite aunt. She is now a big sister, and an amazing one at that. She is protective over Lily, but like any child feels some jealousy as well at times. Grace will always be the apple of my eye. I love her as if she were my own. And nothing will ever change that

6 months ago
My daddy and I: My daddy daughter dance at my wedding :) My father was always my rock. I did everything for him and with him and always wanted to be around him. We were best buds when I was little. I always knew that one day I would marry a man who was just like him, and boy was I right! My husband is so much like my father used be. As time goes on and he gets older, so much about my daddy has changed. His huge, loving heart has become a little less huge and a little less loving. He’s been through so much pain and heartache throughout his years as a pastor in the ministry and just life in general. He’s been used and mistreated and walked on by the very people he spent his life serving. All of that has made my daddy’s heart a little cold and unkind. But he has never stopped being my best friend. His love for me has never grown cold. And I know I can always count on my father. After all, I’m daddy’s little girl!

My daddy and I: My daddy daughter dance at my wedding :) My father was always my rock. I did everything for him and with him and always wanted to be around him. We were best buds when I was little. I always knew that one day I would marry a man who was just like him, and boy was I right! My husband is so much like my father used be. As time goes on and he gets older, so much about my daddy has changed. His huge, loving heart has become a little less huge and a little less loving. He’s been through so much pain and heartache throughout his years as a pastor in the ministry and just life in general. He’s been used and mistreated and walked on by the very people he spent his life serving. All of that has made my daddy’s heart a little cold and unkind. But he has never stopped being my best friend. His love for me has never grown cold. And I know I can always count on my father. After all, I’m daddy’s little girl!

6 months ago
Ryan and I and a do-do bird. This is us when we first met! We drove up to Michigan so I could meet his family and his parents took us to the zoo! We took so many pictures that day but this one was our favorite! My hubby has this picture on the dash of his car so he can see me often. I love that he loves me so much ♥ My true love and soul mate :) I knew already by then that he was the one

Ryan and I and a do-do bird. This is us when we first met! We drove up to Michigan so I could meet his family and his parents took us to the zoo! We took so many pictures that day but this one was our favorite! My hubby has this picture on the dash of his car so he can see me often. I love that he loves me so much ♥ My true love and soul mate :) I knew already by then that he was the one

6 months ago
November Update! It’s been a while….

Oh my goodness! It’s been so long since my last blog. October was an extremely busy month, November is becoming a busy month, and December will be crazy too! The holidays keep me busy, but they also make me think more about our little ones in Heaven who SHOULD be enjoying these festive family times with us.

So hubby and I are really doing well! God has been blessing us financially and in our marriage relationship as well. We have both finally gotten on the same page in so many different things. We have our days and arguments of course, but we are able to enjoy spending time with each other. I’m always afraid of these “mountain tops” though. What goes up, must come down, and i’m always afraid of that part. 

We just experienced this feeling a few weeks ago. Hubby and I had decided to stop Trying for a baby (as you read in our previous blog) and begin to refocus on US! And we did! However, the day that Mother Natures Red Devil was due to arrive, SHE NEVER SHOWED!! I was so ecstatic! I really thought that i was just wrong about the ‘stop trying and relax’ approach because in all my years I’ve never been late for my period without a positive pregnancy test! Surely this was our month! 

Originally, I was dreading the thought of my period being due on November 1st because if we had not lost our first baby, then he or she would have been due on November 1st! When Thursday rolled along and no AF I couldn’t wait to run to Walmart for a test! I thought this was a miracle, a gift from God! Friday morning I took the test and BIG FAT NEGATIVE. All of my excitement came back and sucker punched me in the face. I felt so much heartache, rejection, failure, and disappointment, yet again. But i thought, well maybe it’s still too early, I’ll get a better test and take it tomorrow. Saturday morning’s test was negative, Sunday morning’s test was negative, and so was Monday’s, Tuesday’s and Wednesday’s tests! I was almost officially one week late and i had no idea what to think! I had so many symptoms of pregnancy! SO MANY OF THEM! This had never happened to me before! So Thursday I called a Dr and had them order an HCG test. The test was 0.5 (anything under 5 is considered negative). So now, I was a week late and had no signs of my cycle starting. And as my “pregnancy” symptoms began to disappear, the Dr was going to prescribe medicine to make me have a period. If by that Monday i did not start, the medicine would be called in. Well, needless to say, my body cooperated and started on it’s own, and let me tell you, My uterus was raging! Probably top 5 worst cramps I’ve ever had in my life!

So here we are on Cycle Day 6 and my heart wants me to keep trying, my husband wants us to begin again, but my flesh is so terrified of welcoming the possibility of another month of heartache, rejection, and the F word again, “failure”. So we found an RE here in town that has agreed to see us and help us figure out what is going on. And we are hopeful that 2013 will be a better year. 

Keep following for updates in our journey! I appreciate everyone who has taken the time to read about our mundane lives! :) God Bless!

6 months ago
Optimism Isn’t just an 8 letter word

I’ve been proud of my ongoing optimism. I’m still not a mommy, no not yet, but I know one day I will be. I’m still sickened by the disappointments from 19 months of failed TTC, but I’m choosing not to dwell on the past anymore. I haven’t moved on from the deep desire to be a mother, and I haven’t given up on the dream, but I’ve moved on with my life in hopes and faith that God will bring me that happiness one day when he decides that it’s time. (Hopefully not toooooo much longer lol) but It’s all up to him. In the meantime, hubby and I are in love. We have fallen even deeper in love. We are learning again to cherish each other. And i must say, it’s beautiful! I have always loved my husband, but for a moment i felt as if we were losing each other. The stresses of his work, of my depression, of our finances, they were weighing down our ability to love each other unconditionally. And I truly believe that we’ve found a passion for each other again. Tuesday we finally both had the entire day off together! And guess what folks, NOT ONE SINGLE ARGUMENT! It was Heavenly. We spent an hour at the dog park with our furry kiddos who absolutely had the best time of their little lives. We went for a 2 mile walk to the video store and not only did i keep up with Mr long legs but i didn’t get out of breath! And then we spent the rest of the night watching a movie, cuddling on the couch, and just BEING with each other. Days like those are why i wanted to be married in the first place. To connect with someone that you love and you know loves you back no matter what the past has been like. To share moments and memories that will last forever. 

And I want to say i’m EXTREMELY proud of my husband. Not only does he work long stressful difficult days and hours at his job, but he has handed over control of the bills to me. Which means every 70 hour work week he gives me all of his money and only keeps 15% for himself. He gives all the rest to me for bills, groceries, etc. And he has been doing an amazing job at keeping his word and letting me take care of our finances! 

Oh and i’m down 3 inches so far, dropped a pants size, and 4 pounds~ woohoo!!

7 months ago
Everyday is a new beginning. I may have screwed up yesterday, but that was yesterday. Today is new and the old has passed away. God’s mercies are new everyday. The sins I may have committed yesterday have been forgiven and I rejoice today that I am free from yesterday’s mistakes. That’s the joy of being a believer. It may sound like the easy way out or that therefor I have no fault, but that is not true at all. Jesus died for me so that I could be forgiven. He asked his father while he was being murdered to forgive them because they didn’t know what they were doing. I know when I’m in the wrong, and I am aware of my sin and I feel that conviction. But It wasn’t meant for us to bear the weight of our sin. That’s why he died. He so unselfishly gave his own life so that I could live mine. It would be selfish of me to not recognize that, and in turn live life how I wanted to. That is why I live for him. He was perfection. Who did nothing wrong, who knew no sin, and he suffered because he was thinking of me. I’m so madly in love with the man who died for me. I would give up my entire world just to be with him for an eternity. I would give up everything that I hold close to me if it meant that I could be embraced by the man who saved my soul. That love is all he ever asked for in return. And I’ll live my life giving him all the love that I have in my heart. 

Everyday is a new beginning. I may have screwed up yesterday, but that was yesterday. Today is new and the old has passed away. God’s mercies are new everyday. The sins I may have committed yesterday have been forgiven and I rejoice today that I am free from yesterday’s mistakes. That’s the joy of being a believer. It may sound like the easy way out or that therefor I have no fault, but that is not true at all. Jesus died for me so that I could be forgiven. He asked his father while he was being murdered to forgive them because they didn’t know what they were doing. I know when I’m in the wrong, and I am aware of my sin and I feel that conviction. But It wasn’t meant for us to bear the weight of our sin. That’s why he died. He so unselfishly gave his own life so that I could live mine. It would be selfish of me to not recognize that, and in turn live life how I wanted to. That is why I live for him. He was perfection. Who did nothing wrong, who knew no sin, and he suffered because he was thinking of me. I’m so madly in love with the man who died for me. I would give up my entire world just to be with him for an eternity. I would give up everything that I hold close to me if it meant that I could be embraced by the man who saved my soul. That love is all he ever asked for in return. And I’ll live my life giving him all the love that I have in my heart. 

7 months ago